I try almost daily to write a post to all of you who have sent me such incredible love this last month. But the right words just escape me. I sit with a blank stare, then eventually give up. I try to figure how I can possibly transition from that knock at the door to the awesome things that were just about to be unveiled in my creative world. You have been so awesome to share that doing life is not always pretty or easy for you either. But we try our best to find the beauty where ever we can, because that's what we do, right?
Thank you for asking how I'm doing; much better, I think. Well I'm not running into walls so much anymore. Seriously; not strange or unfamiliar walls, but the walls in my own house that haven't moved for the last twelve years. Then it was such a relief to be able to get through the memorial for Jonathan. I was so extremely focused on the details of that memorial and Tim, Jennifer and I getting through it still standing, that I actually felt a bit of short-lived euphoria. However, Thanksgiving was only a few days later and no longer were we cleaning up from that dinner that the Christmas season officially began. I forced myself to put up the tree. It took two days. I still have the ornaments that Jonathan made as a child, then I find myself rolled up in a fetal position. So many memories during the holidays feels like salt poured on a fresh wound. Anyone that's been through trauma or rehab, etc. knows how magnified those memories become. But each day is better and while I'm not quite at full speed yet, I am finding much comfort in getting back to being creative again.
So, speaking of being creative....did I tell you I designed a new home decor line for Demdaco that will be available after January 1st? Here's just a sampling of what to expect: